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Friday, December 9, 2011

Im such a bad blogger :(

Please forgive me I have so much to blog about. I have been a bad blogger and it has NOTHING to do with time. I have just had alot of feelings I have been.....well scared to share. Even though I know a few people read this it is still a bit scary to put it all out there.

For me blogging makes it that much more really and I just don't think (at the time) I was ready to handle that. Its late but I will post a big update soon. For now I have some good news!!

I have lost a total of 22.2 lbs!!! I lost 4 lbs this week alone (crazy I know). I'll tell you more about it tomorrow.

STATS
Starting weight : 255
current weight:  232.2
Goal weight:     150

Monday, November 14, 2011

Wow sorry :(

Right when I say I want to keep blogging everyday things get crazy (ok not really) but things did get a bit busy and I got to have some over night alone time with my hubby :).My sister and brother in law were awesome and wanted to take my kids over night. OK so thats 2 adults with a 9 year old, 2, 6 year olds (one boy one girl) and a 4 month old baby girl (who is amazingly cute by the way, I mean come on she is my niece after all so she has to be right? LOL). Needless to say these are some brave siblings of mine.

This is where my weekend gets a bite scary.....

 We went out to their place about 9am and got to watch my nephews last soccer game. Then Mick and I said bye to the kids and went out to breakfast. Ihop is NOT my friend!!! I couldn't resist and I got hash browns with 2 slices of bacon and some scrambled eggs (egg substitute, see I was thinking) then I got Egg Nog pancakes and OMG they were so yummy!!! I didn't eat everything, I was so stuffed but I knew I had alot of points. After asking for the nutritional info (which they are more then happy to get you) My breakfast was 32 pts!!! I only get 35 DP's a day and I just ate all but 3.

It was Sat and I still had all my WP's so I felt I would be ok. After that we got to go to the De Young Museum in SF. We walked around for 3 hours looking at everything. If you have never been and live close enough to go, GO its awesome. After that we headed home for a bit before we went out to dinner.

One of our fave places for dinner is Texas Roadhouse (another evil place points wise). Since it was just  Mick and I, we splurged a bit. We each got a rib eye stake dinner. I got a salad and mash potatoes, but those peanuts and the bread OMG. I only had 1 roll and just a few peanuts, but we did get some drinks :( and those points added up fast.

After dinner we walked around at some stores before our movie started (we had about 1 hour to kill). When it was time we head to the movie theater, I got my 2 pt iced coffee from Starbucks (it was a 10pm movie and I was ready for bed LOL) we also got a small popcorn to share and Mick was cute and got me a small pack of Swedish fish (mmmm candy). After the very scary movie (paranormal activity 3). I had eaten my candy, my drink and about 4 handfuls of popcorn. When I got home I put everything in to my e-tools and OMG I was -16 pts!!! I had eaten all my DP and WP's in 2days most just in this one day.

I have been feeling so guilty about it, Mick has really been my support. He knows I'm a bit bummed but he also knows I will be fine if I earn AP's. SO Sunday before the kids got home I went for a run, then today I went and walked around all kinds of stores with a friend the whole time the kids were at school. I also ran to school today to pick the kids up and we all walked back home. Mick also got out of the shower tonight and told me I needed to do my yoga....... and I did :). After all this activity I'm starting to believe I'll be ok too. Even if the scale goes the wrong way or if it doesn't move at all. I had an amazing night with my hubby, a whole day and night alone, something we haven't been able to do in soooo long. It was worth every point I ate :)

I have zumba tomorrow night, and I'm dancing at a school cultural night, then dance thur night. As long as I stay with in my DP's I'll be fine. I mean I cant really complain I have lost at least 3.5lbs the last 3 weeks in a row. It cant last, and sometimes you just have to let lose. That what I love about WW's the most, I don't have to try to fit my life in to it, it fits in to mine.

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Day 15 Last day

Today is the last day of the Blog challenge, I actually made it 15 days blogging and I have decided I want to go another 15 days :). Its has been so nice to have a place to vent about my WW world. Mick is so supportive but I know he can only hear so much about it before he tunes me out LOL. SO I'm going to continue to blog at least 15 more days, who knows maybe Ill end up blogging till I hit goal :)

So today I really tried to kick up the workouts and earn some AP's. I did a BL workout video and a yoga video, then I had dance class to night. I'm hoping its been enough to make that scale move n the right direction. We shall see :)

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Day 14 Doctors report


I have worked at the kids school the last 3day and in fact it feels like I have been so busy. Today they got out early which was nice, I felt like I actually got things done at home. Although I wanted to go to Zumba toning tonight but I have a PTA meeting. So instead I am planning on doing a work out video as soon as I get home. I really want to get more AP's. Last week I earned 71 AP's (talk about sweating lol) this week so far I have 36. I am a bit worried that I wont lose much this week if at all because my exercise has been so low.

I have been doing really good food wise which is always a plus, but not always a scale mover. Ether way I still feel GREAT and that what really matters. I just went yesterday to the Doc and had a full physical and got the results of all my blood work I had done. I'm very happy to say everything is PERFECT! No health or potential health issues at all. Good cholesterol is great, bad cholesterol is nice and low, no thyroid probs, no liver or kidney probs, and no blood sugar probs, and I have really good blood pressure :)

I was so happy to hear all that. Its always so nice to know you don't have health issues. I do have to admit I was pretty scared I did. I don't feel bad, or anything but I was pretty much assuming because of my weight and the lack of giving a crap about it for all these years, that I would have something scary starting, or close to it. I'm kinda taking this A+ health check as my get out of jail free card. I have to keep doing WW, I have to keep losing weight, I need to be in a healthy weight rang and have a good BMI. I need to keep eating healthy foods and lots of water. I have to keep doing some type of exercise everyday. I have too cause if I don't I will have health problems.

I want to be around for my kids and being at a normal weight with a good BMI is one of the way to do that. I want them to know eating right and being active is super important. Also I want them to try new things and being healthy is the only way that's going to happen. So I'm going to keep up all this hard work for me and for my kids.

I have so many good recipes I figured I should have shared more then I have at this point. So here is a quick yummy Breakfast recipe. I make this all the time (when I have the pts to spear) ether for Breakfast or just a snack.

Strawberry smoothie

1cup Plain non fat Greek yogurt
5 strawberry's
1 TBS Sugar (or any type of sweetener you like)
2-3 Ice cubes

Put it all in the blender till its well mixed and ice is crushed. That's it that simple and its so YUMMY!
Only 5pts for the whole thing, great if you have a Bullet blender (I'll tell you all about mine later :))

Day 13 Lucky number 13 :)

Today has been a good day. I have really tried all day to put yesterday behind me. On thing I'm loving right now is our weather. Its been so cold and I'm in a total winter food mood. Winter foods = soups, stews, chowders and chili's mmmmmm nice hot yummy winter foods. Also cant forget a warm breakfast!

A friend of mine was telling me about this oatmeal she makes with pumpkin in it OMG its amazing. I have never been an oatmeal fan till I had this. One of the things I really like is the steel cut oats. I have only ever had instant oatmeal, you know with the flat little pieces of oats. Well steel cut are WAY better, they plump up when they are cooked and have more of a chewy texture, who know you could actual bite in to an oat (lol). Anyways this oatmeal is super yummy (I'll post the recipe another day).

Along with the cold weather I'm make a turkey chili tonight for dinner, its LOADED with veggies, I am even throwing in egg plant :)

Well I'm off to zumba, so I will post a few recipes tomorrow, but over all today is a good day :)

Monday, November 7, 2011

Day 12 What a long day OP :)

Today was a bit long (some of it unexpectedly) but I did plan. I made a great low points chowder last night for dinner, and that was what I planed on eating for lunch today. After I dropped the kids off at school I came home and started to plan out my dinner. We were having home made fajitas, I got this pre cooked stake strips at costco (one less thing to cut and cook, just reheat). I cut up 1 green, yellow and red bell pepper, 2 small onions and sated them in a little bit of EVOO. In another pan, just for me and Mick, I sated 2 chopped up jalapenos (mmmmm spicy). The point were a bit high for 2 fajitas (11 pts = 6 oz stake, 2 tortillas, and 1 cup of veggies).

So dinner was planned I was getting my lunch together and tracked it all. As I got my 1cup scoop of soup, I thought to my self "that doesn't look like much?". So I grabbed a 100 cal pack of snack mix, and a pack of fig nutin fruit crisp as a treat. For some reason it still didn't look filling so I grabbed a bunch of grapes. I had to work at the kids school today so I took my lunch with me and ate with a friend before my shift. My soup was so good and that 1 cup was filling, but I still ended up eating the rest of what I brought. I was SOOO full!!! Way to full!! I couldn't believe I didn't stop I just kept eating.

Then came dinner. I was so full from lunch I didn't have any snacks in between lunch and dinner. I was getting a bit hungry wile I was cooking so I just finished, then made my two fajitas. I again thought "this don't look like much" and started to think what I was going to eat with my last 9 DPs and maybe some 0pt fruit. Well I ate one fajitas and was full but..... I don't know really maybe just because it was on my plate.........or because I tracked it......... I don't know really but I ate the second one and was again STUFFED, beyond stuffed.

I'm pretty convinced that since I don't eat as much as I used to all the time my stomach cant hold as much, or I just know how to read the satisfied feeling much better. Ether way I went over that and completely throw that feeling and knowledge out the window. I stayed OP and still have 9 pts left for my day but I so don't want them! The reason I don't want them..... All my over eating made me super sick. I have been in and out of the bathroom for about 3 hours now and finally took a bath to relax. Luckily it helped and I feel better but man that sucked!!

Worst part (and its not sitting on the toilet) I feel like I let myself down. I feel guilty, like I went completely off program (even though I didn't). I feel like I binged, which in fact not listening to that "satisfied" feeling, is binging. Now I just feel like crap and its not my stomach :( I still have 9 pts left and I think I'm just going to get them in with some apple juice I got when I went to Apple Hill Saturday. Its so hard sometimes, even when your doing what your supposed to sometimes it still not right.

On a good note I am learning to read my body much better. Just wish my brain and eyes would catch up to my stomach. The food I ate today was pretty heavy and I'm finding that I just cant handle that all day, at every meal. I need my fruits and veggies to help my tummy and to help me not go over on the heavy foods. Also even though I stayed OP, I need to deal with the fact I went over my limit and ignored my body signs. One step at a time I guess. Its a long journey and this is just a little bump in the road. I'll get it down, but I suppose even if I do I'm still going to have slip ups here and there.

"When you fall off the horse, all you can do is say ouch and get back on"

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Day 11 Apple pick with WW friends

Yesterday I had the pleasure of meeting these lady's
Left to right: Lauren, Me, Jen, Rhonda and Brandi
For the first time ever I was not self conscious about being the heaviest one of the group. Cause all these lady's a proud ex-fatties :) my role models. I know they all have a wight goal, and are still just a few lbs from that but they have all accomplished MAJOR changes all ready. Between the 4 of them they have lost 427.4 lbs!!!! That's no joke, I'm not exaggerating, they have really lost that much weight. Its absolutely amazing to me and meeting them in person has really boosted my confidence that I can do this too.

Not to mention they are so much fun to hang out with. We talked, picked apples, ate, laughed like crazy, had fun being completely goofy and just enjoyed being with WW like minded people....... Yep these are my kind of girls!

We headed up to Apple hill, and stopped at a cute little farm to pick apples.

Finding the right row of trees
Crazy gorges Brandi out in like 50' weather with only a sweater on.

Rhonda and Lauren found some Granny Smiths

Peeking Jen hehehe

The reason we came out here.

Just to show how goofy we are. Here is a pic of Rhonda taking a pic of Lauren taking a pic of Brandi LOL
Yep we are that cool :)

After the apple pick we went to another farm/ranch called High Hill, it was huge. It had all kinds of food, pies, apples, crafts and to many things for us to make fun of hehe.

One of the things we were cracking up over..... Skull caps!

Freezing but still happy to be hanging out.

They had a really cute place to eat, with some points friendly choices. I had a yummy Turkey sandwich.
Lauren got the same thing with a salad, and Jen had a veggie burger that looked good too (although she swears it was deep fried LOL).

My new nick name for Rhonda (said with lots of love) is the "Evil Queen" hehe, you know from Snow White haha apples get it?..... Just go with it.

The reason being, she brought this to the lunch table.
She even held me down and forced 2 bites down my throat...... OK maybe not but it did taste so good I had to buy one to take home to Mick and the kids (ok and for me too) :) Best apple pie ever, thanks for sharing Rhonda.

This ranch was huge and had alot of craft booths, I got a really cute ornament and the other girls got some good stuff too.

Me and Brandi at the High Hill ranch.

After the ranch we headed back to Rhonda's place to skate. Lauren is a Roller Derby girl and so we took advantage of the fact she had skates in her car :) (I just took pics and some video).
After earning some AP's skating, and before we said bye we went out for some frozen yogurt. It was so good!

Thanks lady's (my FF's) for such an amazingly fun day. Thanks for all the laughs, stories that letting me know I'm not alone, and all the encouragement. You are the best :) cant wait to go out again!
Fatties for ever :)

Saturday, November 5, 2011

Day 10 Awesome day out

So I will have way more to post tomorrow once I get my pics uploaded.

I had the best day today mainly because I got to hang out with some WW buddies I met on the WW message board I hang out in alot. These are some of the most down to earth, totally get me and my WW ups and down, and SO MUCH fun women I have ever met. Don't get me wrong I have alot of amazing friends but these lady's totally get my WW world. All my friends are super supportive, but this group has been there done that and still doing it WW wise.

Brandi, Jen, Lauren and Rhonda thanks for an awesome day, cant wait to hang out again :)

Friday, November 4, 2011

Day 9 Look what I got....

I made my 5% GOAL!!!!! IM so on cloud nine right now its AWESOME!!!!

Its always so nice when you see you results. I was hoping I was going to get it but I didn't expect the big loss I had. I lost 3.8 lbs this week! I guess all the walking and Zumba really paid off :)

I just had to post this, cause I'm going out to go do some cloth shopping. I need some new cloths cause poor me nothing FITS!!

Quote for the day:
"I never said it would be easy, I just said it would be worth it"

Stats
Starting weight: 255
Current Weight: 240.4
Goal weight: 150

Total lost so far 14.6 LBS!!

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Day 8 Getting ready for WI

I know I have talked about it a bit in my last few post but I am really nerves for WI tomorrow. Well lets talk about my week. I feel I have had a great week. I have been tracking everything, and earned a ton of activity points this week (71 to be exact). I have been drinking water like crazy (to help with water weight from exercising so much). I have also been keeping up on my GHG and getting all my veggies and stuff in.

I'm only 2.2 lbs from my 5% goal. That means I have lost 5% of my body weight. To me that's a big deal, and alot of motivation. 2.2 lbs is still alot to lose in one week, even though I have done that and more before, its still alot. I feel good about it though. I also think since I have been exercising so much, that's my main reason for not having many emotional issues.

Exercising this week I feel has helped improve my mood, and helped a ton with my emotional eating. I was even super stressed and getting really upset this after noon cause my computer wouldn't work (the apartment one). SO I couldn't print out some rental agreements I needed and I was getting SUPER upset. Any other time I would have gone right for the Halloween candy sitting on my table. This time I walked away got dressed for dance class, came back and got it to work. Then took off and worked my butt off in Hula and Tap tonight. I came home relaxed (and sweaty), feeling good and strong.

I don't want and I will try my best to not let the scale impact my mood. I also want to keep up this awesome work out routine I have going on. I love my Zumba classes and Love my dance class so I don't think that will be a problem. After all that the scale is still a scary thing cause you just never know how your body is going to react to new workouts, food I ate, or anything really. SO I will just have to suck it up and get on that scale tomorrow and let the chips fall where they may. Most of all I need to be ok with a gain or a small loss if thats what happens. This is a LONG journey and I have a LONG way to go, so little steps is the only way I'm going to do this and make it stay off.

Wish me luck :{ cause after my pep talk to myself I'm still scared.

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Day 7 Zumba freak

I'm so turning in to a Zumba freak. I took a class Saturday morn, then my regular class Tuesday night, and I took a toning one tonight. The Toning one was AWESOME, if you like Zumba you will like this change to it. Its not a huge cardio work out but its still dancie and fun and boy do you work those muscles and sweat.

I can all ready feel my shoulders and legs beginning to tighten from all the working out. Tomorrow after I drop the kids off at school I think I might take a bath. I'm trying really hard to work out more and the best park is I can actually see the results!! I don't think anything is more motivating then that, I feel stronger, I don't get winded as fast, I can easily keep up with the kids and dance class, and I can see things getting smaller. Also some of my pants don't really fit anymore. Shopping :)

I have WI fri and I'm a bit nerves. I have been trying really hard but its always something that can be a bit scary. I want to see that scale go down so bad, I want to lose weight and feel good about my appearance. I have to just keep reminding myself this take time and I'm doing the best I can and I have to just keep going.

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Day 6 Im so....

Tired!!!! After all the fun of walking around Trick or Treating, then going to Zumba tonight I'm so tired. All I want is a good night sleep and a slow day tomorrow. I'm also trying a new toning Zumba class tomorrow so I will let you know how that is.

All in all its been a good day even with 2 HUGE bowls of candy sitting on my table all day. Its pretty funny how our body's work. Since I have been eating so many fruits and veggies I don't crave sugar like I used to. I would be lying if I said I didn't have any Halloween candy. I did in fact indulge a bit, but after 2-3 pieces I was good. Its nice to feel in control and its nice to know I can do this.

I'm sure.... No I know I will have some hard days but at least they feel like they are going to be further apart then they used to. I'm really proud of my self about how well I handled my last bout of emotional eating, that has given me some strength that no matter what I can bounce back.

NEVER GIVE UP :)

Monday, October 31, 2011

Day 5 Happy Halloween!!

Happy Halloween Everyone!!!

Today was a HARD day. The kids each had a party in class and I helped out in both. There was LOTS of non-point friendly foods, for example.......

Pizza
Chow Main
Cup cakes
12 (no joke) different kinds of cookies
pop corn
fried rice
and CANDY up the wa-zoo
Lemon aid
kool aid packs
and fruit punch

It was crazy, but I did pretty good. I had 1 small slice of pizza and 1/2 cup chow main and about 4 oz of lemon aid. It still added up to more then I would have liked (points wise) but it is what it is and it was good.

After school the kids had time to do their homework, then we had to get ready to go to a Halloween Party at a friends house. This was more of a before Trick or Treating dinner party. Once again good food, lots of pts. I tried to do good, I know when to say stop and I did. The only prob is I know the points were a bit high (I still haven't tracked it yet so I don't know where I'm at). I did have 8 DP left and 23 WPs so I know I'm covered but it is still going to be close.

We just got back from trick or treating so I also need to track my 2 hours of walk. Got to love those AP's. Maybe I'll have enough to sneak a piece or two of the kids candy :)

Day 4

Today was another good day. Nothing much happening its a pretty quiet day. I'M just trying to save my last WP so I can have some of the kids candy tomorrow :)

Saturday, October 29, 2011

Day 3

Today was a great day :)

I help work the door on Tue and Sat's now for my Zumba classes. Which is great cause I get to take the classes for free :). What more motivation do I need to work out right hehe. So I got up early today went to Zumba class and it totally set the tone for my day.

After that I hung out at home, washed cloths then got the kids ready to go out to my Sisters for my Nephews Birthday party. Luckily I planed for it, I knew there would be cake and I wanted to have some but I need to have control and make sure I got just a small piece. Also since it is a few day before Halloween I know my Sister would have candy, Luckily she like stuff I don't so I wasn't to worried about that.

When we got there the food was ready so we ate. I made sure to scan everything then decide what to have. When I did I actually grabbed my iPod and made a note of what I was eating and how much so I could track it later. The best part since I wrote it down I wanted to stick to my servings I all ready decided I was going to have.

and.......

I DID!!! I had some chips, a hot dog, some Milk duds (ok so she remembered I like them, but she got the small box's so I only had 2 hehe), and a very small piece of cake. I drank water all day, no soda and I feel really good. I still have some WP that I'm saving for some candy on Halloween (hey I have to test the kids candy to make sure its safe ;) hehe). I'm really happy with my self today. I feel good about all my choices, and that really is the biggest battle everyday.

Day 2

Today was WI day and I'm so excited. I lost 3.2 lbs this week. It was nice knowing I lost the 2 lbs I gained last week and then a bit more. I'm only about 2.5 lbs from my 5% goal. It feel good to see the scale go down, but it feel really good to know I made good food choices.

I am very happy my WP started over cause the kids have a Fall carnival at school tonight. I know what food will be there and I want some hehe. So I'm planning accordingly, I'm bringing some fruit with me to snack on but I'M definitely going to have some Nachos tonight.

Stats
Staring weight: 255
Current weight: 244.2
Goal weight: 150

*** I hit publish yesterday for this post, but I guess I closed my laptop to fast cause I just noticed it was in the drafts section. opps**

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Blog challenge Day 1

 Today has been a bit crazy for me. As I took the kids to school this morn I splurged and got a coffee from Starbucks (grande skinny Carmel latte only 2pts!!!), but I didn't grab breakfast cause I was coming right back home. Then I got stuck at school helping out in Skyla's class and a friends classroom. I already said I would work at the school during lunch so I had a short window to go get something and eat. I was starving!!

DUN DUN DAH (insert scary music here) I was being rushed and this was the time that hitting a drive thru would be so easy, quick and most of all I could lie to my self and justify it. 

What to do?

How about Suck it up and make the right choice! That's just what I did and I have been on cloud 9 about it all day. Its so nice how making a decision and eating right can make you feel so good. Anyways I went home and pulled out a  WW smartones I had in the freezer for such an occasion :)
I also grabbed a apple and some water, then headed back to school. I cooked my food in the staff room and hung out talking with some of the teachers. One even comment on how healthy and yummy my lunch looked. It felt good knowing I made the right choice for me. Best part no guilt, no feeling bad because I messed up, also I had tons of energy from eating so well.

Good choices are not always easy to do, and most of the time the "easy way out" wins. Trying to prepare for a time when you might have to eat and run is going to make those tough food choices a bit easier.

I have WI tomorrow so I bet you can guess what tomorrows post will be about. I'm a bit nerves :( but at the same time excited. I have had alot of emotional owning up to do this week and I just hope the scale shows how hard I worked. Even if it doesn't, I know I did my best and it will come off in it own time.

I feel good, physically and emotionally and that's all I can ask for :)

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Blog challenge!

OK so I found another WW challenge I signed up for. Its a challenge to blog at least once a day for the next 15 day. I really want to do this, I don't keep a journal (have tried but writing isn't my thing) but I love blogging. So each day for the next 15 days (hopefully more after that) I will blog about something.

PLEASE!!!!!! Leave me some feed back. I would love to hear from all of you, question, comments anything really. Ideas about what to blog about are good to :)

Thanks

I have been a bad girl (long post)

I haven't blogged on here in almost 2 week. Why you may ask.........

Simply put I didn't want to face my choices. We all go through it and it happens, we make a bad choice, we have a pitty party, on a good day we pull it together and just get back on track, on other days we stay at our low till we finally decide to face our bad choice, own up to it and move on. I think that's my favorite part of life, It doesn't stop it always moves on.

On a friends WW profile she put this quote that I just love "Why are you looking in the past your not going that way"
Life moves on, with our with out you. So today I decided to blog about my bad choices (own up to them really) and leave it all behind me and move on. I did, however, want to be honest and own up.

Last Fridays WI (10/21) I had a 2.6 lbs gain. Yep those 2.6 lbs I lost the week before to make my 10 lbs goal for the dance recital found their way back. It was no fault but my own, I let life be my excuse for not eating right or tracking anything I ate. It was not a pretty gain ether, I CRIED LIKE A BABY! Then I sat in my meeting trying really hard to hear what my WW leader had to say but all I could think about was my gain and how bumbed I felt.

After each WI I always text Mick, my Mom, my Sister and a few friends who are my super support, this time I only texted Mick and my Mom. Mick said "O baby don't worry, you'll get there, I love you" (he was at work and couldn't due much else but that sweet text). My Mom knows me and she text back saying "its going to happen from time to time, hang in there" Then just as fast she called. I told her I was ok and knew this happens, after my week I expected it, it just sucks, she got quiet and then said "you don't sound OK". That was it the water works came again and I cried my eyes out on the phone to my Mom. Can I just tell you how much I love my Mom she is the best, she is one of the strongest women I know and is one of my best friends. She is supportive and understanding and makes me own up to being a butt head hehehe. She is kind, giving, and loving, and no matter what she always makes time to listen to me rant. I love you Mom!

Back to my story........So since I didn't text everyone I usually do I started get text from my friends asking how WI was. I had to own up to my gain, each time I did I got loving replies back, lots of encouragement and support. Support is KEY to weight loss, it really is. After all the kind words I started to feel better, but anyone who really knows me also knows I can put on a good front. That's just what I did, I tried to make myself believe I was fine, I told everyone I was fine, and I found things to distract myself.

On Monday I was on this awesome WW board I frequent alot hehehe. I was having a hard day eating wise so I left a post on there to get some feed back (another support group, and I have met some awesome lady's on there). I told them I felt like I was craving something but didn't know what, I wasn't hungry, I had a treat but it wasn't what I wanted, and my sweet tooth was going crazy. They gave me a bunch of tips (brush your teeth, go to bed super early, go for a walk, lock myself in my room, etc.). Then one of my boardie friends came on and said "Usually when I'm like this its because I'm not dealing with an emotional problem. I know you had a gain last WI is it still bugging you?"

It was like a light bulb went off, and the cravings stopped as soon as I read that. I knew what my problem was and she was right, it was all emotional. I replied back with "Yes it is, thanks I'm going to go have some alone time, talk with you  tomorrow". That's just what I did, I went in my room and started crying again and tried to just except, deal and move on with my gain. After my cry I played some angry birds to relax, then went to bed. I woke up the next morning feeling good. I didn't binge, and felt good about that. I used my will power and stayed out of the kitchen, and I dealt and owned up to my bad choices.

I could finally move forward, cause life was leaving me behind. Tue and today I have been really good about staying OP. I'm tracking everything I eat (the good, bad and ugly). I'm staying in my DP, and I went to Zumba class last night. I also joined a Yoga challenge on the WW website, its to do at least 20min of Yoga everyday for 1 month and I have to check in each day too. I'm pretty excited about this, cause I love yoga. Also the kids and I walked to school with some friends this morning, that walk felt so good. I also had to go to the bank and the store. Luckily for me they are in the same shopping center and pretty close together. I usually drive and park close to the bank, then get back in my car and drive and park close to the store. These places are not far from each other I mean they are like 3 parking lanes away I have just been that lazy (see I'm owning up). Today though I made the choice to park near the store, walk to the bank, then back to the store do my shopping, then walk to my car. I also didn't park as close to the store as I usually do :)

I / We are always going to have challenges. We are going to make bad choices, we are going to feel down about them. We are going to have to own up to them and we are going to have to move on. I / We need to just remember to own it and really leave it in the past.

Remember this quote "Why are you looking in the past your not going that way"

STATS as of 10/21:
Starting weight: 255
Current weight: 247.4
Goal weight: 155

Friday, October 14, 2011

Its been a good day

So last week I struggeld a bit. I had a small gain (0.8 lbs). That gain also gave me some motivation to really stay on track. So today at WI I found out I had a 2.6 lbs LOSS!!!!! O yeah :)

Starting weight = 255
current weight  = 244.8
Total weight lost = 10.2 lbs !!!!

Best part my dance costume fits amazing now :)

Monday, October 3, 2011

What I have learned.......so far

I'm now 3 weeks in to my Weight Watcher journey and so far so GOOD!! At my last weight in (fri 9/30) I lost 3LBS!!! A total of 8.4lbs lost so far, like I said so far so GOOD!! I have also learned a few things...

1) Its not failure its feedback. How many of you have heard that saying? If you haven't let me be the first to say it to you. Nothing you do in life is ever a failure, there is always something to learn from mistakes, sometimes they are not clear lessons but if we take the time to reflect and try to find where we went wrong we can always figure out how to improve for the next go around.

2) Just because you slipped up for a min, day, week, month or years doesn't mean that you cant change it today, right now!! Don't make a "start date" because you will always find a reason to NOT start! When you decide to change a behavior, waiting till its easy or convenient is just plane stupid (I say that with love and a lot of experience). If you are thinking about changing something then do it, right that min, make the decision to change and do it don't wait!! Only good things can come from trying, its when you do nothing that you get nothing.

3) I think this is the best advice I can give someone on their weight loss journey (or to anyone for that matter about anything really). Just because your doing everything right and your trying your hardest, and working you butt off to see that scale go down, doesn't mean it will when you want it too. Sometime things just don't work out how you want them too, and honestly its not your time line to decide when and where you will get things...... BUT they will come, that scale will go down as long as you keep going. DON'T GIVE UP!!!!!

As for me I'm doing pretty good, could I do better? Sure.
Am I trying? You bet.
Have I slipped up in the last 3 weeks? O yes! there are a few things I shouldn't have done (OK shouldn't have eatin) but I did. I learned from it, and I moved on and have kept going. Here is hoping my work will pay off with a 1.6lbs lost on fri. Why such a specific number you ask....... That will make my first 10 LBS mark!! a place I would love to be :)

On thur I'm heading to the Doc. Don't worry nothing is wrong I'm just going for a physical and some blood work to check my cholesterol and all that, just to make sure I'm a ok. When was the last time you saw your Doc for one? When was last time you saw your Doc with out being sick? Do you know if your blood pressure is good? Is you good and bad cholesterol in the right range? If you cant answer these questions go in and find out. I know for me I haven't done any of this since Skyla was born 6 years ago, and lets face it at 30 years old that's when things start creeping up. So if you haven't go in get checked out and we can swap numbers :)

Friday, September 23, 2011

Guess whaaaatttttt!!!!!!

I hit my first 5 lbs mark!!! WWWOOOHHHOOO!

I lost 2.4 lbs this week for a total of 5.4 lbs in 2 weeks.

Good bye 250's nice knowing ya wont miss ya :)

Stats.....

Starting weight: 250.0
Current weight: 249.6
Goal weight    : 150.0

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Walking and cookies

We have had some NICE weather. So me and the kids took advantage and walked to school the last 2 days. It has been so nice, I get 2 miles in in the morning with out even really thinking about it.

Today was really nice cause we got to walk with friends so at least I had someone to talk to on the way home today :) (thanks Yentl, and Jen).

5 AP earned today all ready and Zumba tonight woohoo 23 AP in one day... sweet!

On another topic, one of the tenants at my place works for Ottis Spunkmayers and brought us over my fave cookies. White Chocolate chip Macadamia nut. I was concentrating so much on staying with in my DP that I didn't touch them. Mick and the kids have been eating them. Will yesterday it dawned on me I still had all 49 of my WP to use. I totally gave in, and it was GOOD! I had 2 cookies for a total of 14 pts and they were yummy. It was nice to get a treat in and I feel good about it. I also noticed I don't feel like me sweet tooth is out of control ether. I SOOOOO love WW I can have a small butt and my cookies too hehehe :)

Sunday, September 18, 2011

Turkey Chili

I made my first WW inspired recipe last night and it was so yummy!!! I made some turkey chili that was loaded with veggies and its definitely one of these recipes that I will be making all fall/winter long.

I used.....
2 med Zucchini
1 1/2 cups mushrooms
1 red and 1 yellow bell pepper
2 small onions
1 1/2 TBS of EVOO
1 14oz can diced tomato's
3 1/2 cups pinto beans
1 pack (1.25 lbs) 99% fat free ground turkey
1 8oz can tomato sauce (and 3 8oz cans water)
1 Box Chili mix

Put all the veggies in a pan and cook till the onions and bell peppers are nice and tender.....

When veggies are done add 1 14oz can of diced tomato's.......

In a large pot brown turkey.....
Once turkey is done follow directions on Chili mix box. Basically add all the spices except the masa flour, tomato sauce and 2 cans water. Let that cook for about 10 min, then add your cooked veggies, pinto beans, and one more 8oz can water. I also added garlic powder, chili powder, and paprika for some more flavor..............
Let it simmer for about 20 min, then enjoy. It make 12 1 cup servings and 1 cup is only 5pts. Since I had some extra points last night I topped it with some shredded cheese and light sour cream it was SO GOOD!!!
Next time I think I'm going to use some kidney beans and maybe add some green onions mmmmm.

Friday, September 16, 2011

Im a Loser

And proud of it :). Had my first weigh in today and I lost 3 lbs!!! I cant believe it and I'm so excited.

Staring weight : 255
Current weight: 252
Goal weight     : 150

O yeah I'm a loser baby :)

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Zumba


I SOOOOOO Heart Zumba!!!

Its a fun, fast, dance exercise that lets you sweat your butt off wile having so much fun. I will be at Dina's (for those in the know  *wink*wink) Tonight from 7:15-8:15 for Zumba class (only $6) if anyone wants to join me.

O and I earn 18 AP!!!!!

Monday, September 12, 2011

Walking

Last night I was thinking a lot about being more active. I was reading a message board post on WW about how even the littlest things count as activity just as long as your moving. The point of the post was "get off you butt and move more".

That lead me to wake up today and deciding I was going to go for a walk. I got the kids ready for school, got dressed in my workout cloths and got all ready to go right after I dropped off the kids.

There are lots of trails around my area but I had one in mind. I walked this trail years ago and knew it was a bit of a challenge, yeah if I was smart I would have thought about this more. Last time I walk this I was 50lbs lighter and had been working out every day for about 5 months. This trail kick my butt today....BUT I did it!!! and I got pics :)

The trail is 1 mile in one direction (so I walked 2 miles today, woohoo for me :) ) and is UP HILL the whole way and a very steep down hill coming back.

I got about half way when I saw this....
Yep nothing but more hill ahead of me. I felt good being able to go as far as I did that I really pushed myself to go the rest of the way. I was so happy I made that choice, see.....

Once I got to the top of that hill in the picture this is what I saw to my right....
I really love living in a city that has hidden gems like this.
This was on my left and still just as pretty. I love being able to see the city and ocean (it was really foggy this morning but trust me the water is there......
I made it all the way to the top of this crazy hill, and was so happy. The rest of the walk was down hill and was much easier, but its pretty steep the whole way and it worked some muscles I forgot I had. Then there it was the best sight I had ever seen. I almost let a tear shed when I saw it........

I really did have a good time and I earned 4 activity pts today :). So what have you done today?

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Weekends are hard!

Trying to stay on target over the weekend when Mick is home, the kids are home, and Sky is dancing at a festival that sells all kids of BBQ-ed goodies and sweet treats all over the place IS HARD! To say Saturday was a tough day is no joke.

Skyla had a show at a street festival in a little town by us. I knew going in to it that all kids of food vender's were going to be there and I went having a strong attitude. I planed to have a treat, and we had all ready planed to eat lunch wile we were out. We had to walk through the whole place to get to the stage were Sky would dance. Luckily we were a bit late so stopping on the way there was not an option but I did get to scan the food area and started to pick out what I wanted.

Sky had to do 2 numbers, she danced 1st and 18th, so we had a pretty good wait between numbers. Luckily her teacher kept me busy by having me help the other kids on and off stage, so I didn't get to walk around between skys numbers (that's when all the unintended eating would have happened). Mick was so sweet and took Justin around, and Sky just loves dance so she was glued to the side of the stage watching every number and singing to some of the songs. :)

It was hot and we were sun drained by the time the show was over that we didn't really want to stay to long. We hit our first stand on the way to lunch. Of course it was a candy stand and SO YUMMY. it is marshmallow cream filled licorice (one of my faves). Sweet and Sour has some of the best candy and the ropes are 2 feet long! Best part is they are low in fat and have low points. Also 2 feet of chew candy takes some time to eat so I felt like I was cheating eating this thing all day long.
Next we got lunch. I'm a sucker for a good Tri-tip sandwich and of course there were plenty to chose from. I ate about half of it when I started to feel satisfied. So I stopped, then after a few min I picked out all the meat (power food) and left the bread. With the BBQ sauce the points were a bit higher but it felt good eating normal food with everyone.

That has to be one of my favorite things about WW, your not on a diet, you just learning to change how you eat and how to pick better choices. At the same time you can splurge and have your goodies too. So needles to say I used almost all my WP on top of my DP yesterday, but my hubby being the sweetie he is suggested we hit the store on the way home to get some low and 0 point foods in the house for me.

All in all it was a good day :)

**Photo thanks to sweetandsourusa.com**

Friday, September 9, 2011

Me

I have been thinking a lot about well.......Me. I have been over weight almost my whole life. I was a pretty normal kid but once I hit about 9 I began to gain weight. Anyways......

2 kids later I'm not happy with my weight at all! When Justin was born I had a goal of reaching my "Goal weight" by the time I was 30. Well 30 hit last month and I'm nowhere near my goal weight. Turning 30 though has put somethings in perspective. One being I'm not at a healthy weight and I'm getting older, the older I get the more this weight will cause problems. I'm very lucky that I don't have any major health problems now but I don't want to wait till I do to start something. So today was a big day for me, I finally found my drive and joined Weight Watchers.

**Click on the link to find more info, but basically you are give a Daily Points target based on your weight. Everything you eat or drink has a points value and the goal is to eat your DP each day with out going under or over.
On top of your DP you have what are called Weekly Points (just in case you did go over your DP or just want a to treat yourself). You get 49 points a week and can use them how ever you want for what ever you want, or not at all. Also when you exercise you earn Activity point which you can use too or not. Pretty easy really don't let this bad description scare you its is really easy I promise**

So I went to my first meeting this morning wile the kids were at school (that was so nice). I got to listen to others tell their tips and tricks and I have the best Leader ever she is so nice and is loaded with tons of info. The best thing I like about weight watcher meetings, is the leaders who run the meetings are WW members too. They have been in my shoes, lost their weight, kept it off, and now maintain their new weight.

At each meeting once a week you weigh in. WW helps you keep track of all your loses and gains and they have little motivating rewards for milestones. Today at my first weight in, I weigh 255 lbs, yep I'm being completely honest about my weight. My goal for this blog is to have a place to whine, throw fits about how hard it is, and share the joys and things I learn along my journey to reaching my goal weight of 150 lbs. Each week after my weigh in I will post a update on here.
I decide to make this very personal experience public because I need some add support and feel that so many others are in my same position hopefully someday this blog will inspire someone else to get on the ball.

So today was my first day and so far I think I did pretty good on my points. My daily points target is is 38 a day with 49 weekly point to use as I like. Today I used all my DP and 20 WP. Not to bad especially since I didn't have many low points things in the house. I had a pretty good day :)

Stats: Starting weight = 255.0
          Current weight  = 255.0
          Goal                 = 150.0

A favorite quote of mine "If life is boring, then your doing it wrong"